What's Going On

Well, I am in a bit of a better place than I was when I last posted. I can't say I have really been depressed, just stressed now. Work is really busy but I will get through. I think I am starting to get used to the chaos. I had no idea how stressful this job was going to be when it was handed to me, but it is what I have so I must deal.

Thanks to the 401K thing, all of my bills are taken care of for now and I turned the credit card I kept over to my father so that I cannot spend any money.

Okay so I am psyched because my sister got us tickets to see Dave Matthews in Las Vegas! It's my birthday present from her. The trip will be free for me; all I have to have is spending cash. So I am saving up for the trip and I will take my credit card for emergency only. Starting next pay period I will be giving money to my father for the trip. It's sad but I cannot keep money. I know it so this is the only way to make it work. I am giving control of my funds to the only person I trust to watch over it and be fiscally responsible.

In the meantime, I had someone get a hold of my bank account info and had to close my accounts at the bank. It's a good thing I work there and was able to catch it as soon as there was a problem.

As for the ex - thongs are not easy. Trusting someone who has previously cheated on you sucks. I am constantly questioning who's calling him, where he has been, why he didn't answer his phone when I called. It's actually sort of tiring. I am starting to wonder if it's worth the trouble. But then there are those times when there is a glimpse of what we used to have, and that makes it really hard to say it's not worth the trouble.