Someone To Love
Okay, so just as I thought I had all of my shit together, I realize I so don't....
Confession:
Yesterday I had this need to go shopping at this store in DC. It was getting late and I didn't want to go so I call my ex out of the blue (because he shops there also) and asked him to come go with me. He agreed, and we got our junk and left. Now, I manipulated him into driving both ways, but I did buy him dinner.
When we got back to his place, I went in and we were chillin' for a while, then I don’t know what came over me. I started lying to him about feelings I have for him just to get him into bed. I do not know what compelled me to lie, but I did. And I slept with him too. It was like a compulsion, like I wouldn’t be happy unless I got him into bed. Now I feel terrible.
I think I'm going to Mass. This might be something that someone higher than me needs to help with.
posted by AnxietyAddict @ 10:20 AM
1 Comments:
Hi AA...
I've done that before with a particularly rocky, passionate relationship that would start/end/begin/finish, over and over. When I would break it off, I would have all of this power, and do exactly what you did.
Don't feel so bad about it. I guess the hard part is moving on and convincing yourself to leave your ex in the past no matter what he does...if that's what you truly want...
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