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Things have been so hectic in my life lately.

Work is functioning at 3,000,000 miles per hour as is my social life (lots of b-days) and my boyfriends wife found out about us. She actually emailed me yesterday. This is their anniversary weekend also. I have no idea what will happen there, but he seems to be prepared for losing her. He said he was doing alright and for me not to worry.

Yesterday I suggested that he and I break things off because it seemed like this was becoming too big, too much for his life and that I didn't want our relationship to end his marriage. He said that wasn't for me to worry about and that he wasn't ready to let me go. So, oh well.

I have been invited to a Partylite party at a friends house this evening. I REALLY want to go, but I have absolutely no money at all. One accounts in the negative and the other has literally $1.40 in it. I have some hair products that I have to return because they make my hair flake so that will give me at least $30, but they will have to refund it to my checkcard. Oh well. I have been trying to get in touch with my sister to see if she wants to go with me to the party then I won't have to worry about money. The party is a ways away so I would need cash just to have in my pocket.

Life is what life is, right? I just don't understand why I can't seem to get this money thing straight. Even when I should have money, I just spend and spend until I literally have nothing. I do better with cash, so maybe that's where I need to stay. I already have 2 checking accounts, one for fun and the other for bills. It's the bill account that I keep overdrawing and it's because I keep taking money out of it after I have gone through the $300 I set aside to spend for 2 weeks.

$300 is enough to carry me through 2 weeks even if I bought lunch everyday, which I don't. I just don't get it. I really need help in managing my funds.

I am really hoping for a raise sometime soon, but I just received an 8.25% raise in April.