Changing My Focus

So I have decided not to let my boyfriend consume so much of my brain space. I spend a lot of time thinking/talking about him and our problems.

So today, I am getting back to my life as it existed without him in it. I have enjoyed my customary cup of Starbuck's in front of my beautiful window looking out onto the golf course, and now I am blogging. Once complete, I will go and CLEAN!!!!

I love to clean, which many people do not understand, but I do. I have to be careful though because when I am stressed and really anxious the OCD becomes unbearable on the cleanliness side. Did I mention that when I was on vacation we stopped at a gas station and I went to pee. The bathroom was hideous. I made my sister wait so I could buy water to clean the bottoms of my shoes because I was afraid the bacteria would transfer to my feet and other places in her truck and ultimately make everyone end up with E. Coli and maybe die. Then again I am a person who didn't get their license until they were 19 because I was afraid I was going to kill someone. WHATEVER!

It's funny how these thoughts are so real to me, but then the minute I open my mouth to speak them outloud I feel like such a weird-ass because I hear just how skewed the thoughts are. Anyway, I have to clean my bathroom with Clorox to keep the E. Coli from spreading and making me and any visitors sick.

I am able to keep my cleaning to my personal space now without feeling that I have to obsessively clean the entire apartment. This is a huge feat for me. When I first moved the cleaning "ritual" was taking about 5 hours on Saturday. And it had to be done on Saturday. Believe me, the apartment is not dirty at all. My roommate is VERY neat and we aren't here very much at all, only in the evenings, if then.

So I will clean my bathroom (cleaned weekly, not an option) and room (now cleaned bi-weekly), I will clean the kitchen and run the dishwasher (weekly, bug infestation fear), and vacuum the apartment. This takes about 2 hours tops.

My sister and I are headed to Georgetown this evening to go to Lush and buy some wonderful body products so I can come home and enjoy a bath! Then depending on how I feel when I get back I may do a little work.

I am excited. It's a beautiful day, a great day to hang in the city and maybe even buy a new purse from a street vendor. Even better!