As It Stands Now...
Well, as we know things have not been going well for me lately. I am not sure if I posted (pretty sure I didn't) about my manager telling me that she notices I have not been "focused" lately at work. She actually said that she has noticed this for about 2 months or so. I had to break down and explain things to her, which is not a bad thing. She knew I was Bipolar so me explaining gave her insight into what it is I am dealing with.
I went to the crack dealer yesterday and she gave me Abilify and 25 mgs of Seroquel to take if the Ambien or Xanax can't get me to sleep. Took the Abilify last night and it made me hazy but not totally sleepy. I took Ambien and slept like a baby. I've been having night sweats, not too sure what's up with that. I am a little tired today, but it's not that bad.
My boyfriend resurfaced yesterday and stayed the night. Apparently when I decided to "let him go" it got his attention. Things were weird, but they are getting to be a little more familiar, slowly. I am still not calling him, I wait for him to call me, and he called 6 times yesterday.
Oh, I have to go back to work, they moved my cube since too many people were stopping to talk to me. My cube was right next to the coffee machine, the talking was kind of unavoidable.
posted by AnxietyAddict @ 11:37 AM
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So how are things with the boyfriend? Did a little time away from you make him realize what he has with you? I hope so. Interesting how they start to see things differently when we stay away from them.
He called 4 times today and summonsed me to dinner at about 7:00 this evening. He didn't ask, he was just like meet me at Clydes (one of my favorites) in 30 minutes. Once I finished telling him not to take me for granted he asked politely and I agreed to dinner.
He was hanging here for a while and then she started calling. She called him 8 times in a row and fianlly he just left. He said he wouldn't be able to relax because he knew there was going to be a lot of drama with her this evening. I am okay with his decision although I don't think he knows it.
I think he realizes that he was screwing up and didn't want to lose what he had with me. I did not call him today, instead waited for him to pick up the phone, and he obviously did. I am redirecting my energy so that he isn't everything to me. I love him so much, but I am being careful.
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